i wish it was last week...

The pain is too much to bear; I ask myself why did our paths ever cross?!?! I cherish every moment, remember every detail. My five senses are highly alert. Each whisper will forever echo, every touch is engraved, all visions are cached, aromas circle me and my taste buds aren’t the same. A sixth sense has developed, an internal feeling which feels like a combination of: your lungs suddenly collapsing, your heart is being squeezed, and, stomach crunches while sitting up straight… I wish it was last week, where my pain would’ve been less now. Never cried so much, never thought so much, and never did my heart ache as much. I ask myself is it the end of a chapter? Or sister fate enjoyed the whole scenario so much and is just preparing for a better and stronger come back? Running short of breath, I bite my lower lip, take a deep breath and forget everything for a minute. Only it comes back all over again, much stronger this time, in five minutes….